What's Bob Gonna Do, Now That He Can't Drink?

Never did I imagine that this would be my life at the age of thirty-nine. I thought that I'd be married with children by now. How did this happen? Why is this my reality? Where is my dream life?   When I was a child I always knew I wanted to be a wife and a mother. I know that I will be a good wife and mother . Y et, I am still single. Proverbs 13:12 says, "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but desire fulfilled is a tree of life." Anyone who has ever suffered a longing that takes a long time to come, or never come understands this verse. Have you ever wanted something so badly that it burned within you? I know you have. It could have been something simple like a longing to do something specific: to travel somewhere, to have a better job, or to buy a certain car. It may be the longing to carry, or adopt a child. You could be like me and long for marriage and a family.  This desire burns within me so strongly that it can consume me. Some...

It has taken me over a month to get the nerve to write and post this blog, because it is so revealing and personal. I know that someone needs to read this though, so I am baring my soul here. Please be kind. Growing up I was a normal sized child. I was active, but not athletic. I was the same size as all my friends until…puberty. Then my life became shrouded in self consciousness. We all know puberty is a big deal. The problem was I started going though it in the fifth grade. From then on I thought I was fat and was even told that I was fat. I was curvier than my friends and many of the other girls in school. I could never wear anything I wanted. People saw this as a license to say terrible things to me. In the fourth grade I was riding my skateboard in front of our apartment and fell on the sidewalk. My sister’s friend starting singing, “I feel the earth move under my feet.” I was mortified and went in the house. In Jr. High I hated P.E. I hated dressing out in front of all the ...