What's Bob Gonna Do, Now That He Can't Drink?

Today is the day that I could have been a mom. It was my projected due date. I’ve watched so many become parents for the second, third, fourth time since then. It’s a hard day. It’s hard to share these thoughts, but I feel compelled to. This is what I put in my journal MONTHS ago.  If I’m not meant to be a mother, what am I meant for? That is the big question I have right now. Maybe I will find an answer. Only God knows. It’s the ONE thing I ever thought I’d be good at. Being a Mom. Now what, God?  What am I to be? I haven’t blogged about this, or really even talked about it that much. I don’t know that I even have the words still.  Back in May my birthday fell on Mother’s Day, which was tough. I had found out that my odds of having a baby were 1%. I wrote these words in my journal right after I found out about my fertility odds. I blogged about it here: http://citywifeinacountrylife.blogspot.com/2017/05/birthday.html I can’t describe how m...

Remember when the Hallmark channel didn’t exist? You would wait for weeks for the next Hallmark Hall of Fame movie to be aired on television. This was regular television. No cable needed. There were so many good movies put out by Hallmark during that time. They still make good movies, but back then they seemed special.  You’d already be crying from the movie, and then they would play the Hallmark commercials and make you cry more. I loved these movies. Recently I was searching the internet for my favorite Hallmark Hall of Fame, Echo of Thunder. I once had bought this movie on VHS, so I thought maybe I could find it on DVD. No such luck. I did however find the book the movie was based upon. I highly recommend this young adult novel. It’s called “Thunderwith,” and was written by Libby Hathorn.   It is a story of a young girl named Lara Ritchie. Her lighthearted, full of life, and adventure seeking mother passes away and she is sent to live with her father whom she has ne...